wat a day.... just got back my fluids test from xiaoling ok not too bad considering the fact tt the first question was lifted straight off from the text! i guess my foresight
has saved me n jimmy n joo some marks more than half actually!

i guess in life one has to seek contentment.. in a certain sense.. wat nick related to me the other day during lecture really made sense to me now..

this is his story..

year one.. he used to be someone ambitious academically n socially and has the urge to keep on improving his grades.. in his quest for such pursuits.. he felt stressed up n empty .. n unsatisfied..

but now.. he has somewhat lost interest in these material things in life n settled for sth more spiritually enriching.. tt has eventually made him a better friend..

this brings to mind :
the complexities of ambitious pple .... being ambitious is a double-edged sword for one would be admired for their drive but in another sense, being ard them can be overbearing if u re an unfortunate soul who is viewed as a potential competitor ..
to some of them life itself is a competition where not emerging tops in any segment of the competition is suffering a fate worse than death(ok i m exaggerating but get the point)

Are overly ambituious pple necessarily stress inducers which by their innate competitiveness has make them insufferable due to the fact tt they re forever competing with others in watever whichever sense ... ?


used to hate this competitiveness tt seems so rife
being an onli child i ve to compete with no one in the same sense i had no one to play with so i was forever self entertained n lost in my own world n self exploring my own persona..just like how i ended up talkin to an "imaginery friend" ok he/she/it is gone right now so i m NOT suffering from schizophrenia! which is a mental condition exhibited by a certain mathematical genius.. N nobel laurate.. John Nash.. he was potrayed in the movie a beautiful mind.. not exactly a blockbuster but very very inspiring.. the scene of him scribling the mathematical fromula on the window seems all too familiar when i look at my tutorial strewn on my table hahah ok fine i admit
i m in love with his brain n hope to haf a teeny weeny bit of it n hoping against hope tt i at least exhibit some of tt mathematicl genius